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Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Today

This post is kind of journalish; sorry!

Today was a beautiful, rare day in that we didn't have anything planned. I am not a person who likes to have my day packed, not that I don't enjoy the occasional play date or outing, but I am much more of a home body who enjoys a slower pace. Although, my days don't often resemble my desire.

The kids and I took a walk up to the park this morning and played together for the first part, and then I sat and observed Kaylinn and John David playing. It was great ..... I felt like I was having one of those rare "stop and smell the roses" kind of moments. Kaylinn was off picking flowers and having a make belief conversation with herself. John David on the other hand was digging, eating dirt and occasionally finding a stick and using it as a golf club/sword. During the 45 minutes of watching my children, Satan almost craftily came in and stole it. I started thinking about something terrible happening to either of them and how I just knew I couldn't survive it. I must admit, I am kind a pessimist. My theory is, if you expect the worst possible in a situation then anything else is better.....not a godly way to perceive life.

Here I was having a perfectly wonderful time and doubt & worry were creeping in; man is Satan good. Praise the Lord! God began speaking at almost the same time. Calmly He assured me; my children are in the best possible hands they could be in...His. And His love for them is greater than even mine. What peace I felt, but it wasn't peace in thinking nothing bad would or could ever happen to Kaylinn or John David, it was peace in knowing God is in control and how freeing that is.

It was a wonderful day & to top it off I ended up with a beautiful bouquet of flowers/weeds!

6 comments:

Wendi Junod

Awesome experience. Very freeing! Love you! Thanks for the encouraging post!

Wendi Junod

Oh and it makes me really sad that we weren't at the park with you. BUT I guess you wouldn't have had the quiet time with the Lord. Not sure it would have been very quiet with us there.

The Hicks

I've done the same thing! And yes! Our kids are in His hands...how comforting!

By the way, you look BEAUTIFUL, little prego. Hope to see you very soon.

-S

Wow, I love that girl. It happens to me too, so I will think of your story the next time those thoughts creep in.

-S

From Susan Dean, by the way.

The Davidson Family

You look great! I hope to see you soon. Miss you...Tiff